Everybody had been so distant nowadays... I felt as if i'm alone, no one could reach my heart.. Everybody is so distant away frm me, sometimes i just dunno wat i m tinking. It was so hard to maintain a smile all the times. Today i was actually damn sad bout my failed eng, but nobody seems to care. Nobody care bout me at all, I'm just a lonely girl in this universe. Sometimes i tend tot hink like that, no matter how cheerul i might look, deep within me i'm just a pessimistic girl. I just found out that i was no better than all the ppl i had critisized b4.. i m perhaps the worst person ever alive. Even if i die one day, will anyone be sad at all? I already tried hard, i really had... I really had... but somehow everything just remained at a standstill.. so sorry to those i had hurt b4, so sorry to those who hate me, so sorry to be a hindrance, so sorry to feel sorry for myself...
I'm sooooooo tired! Still haven do my maths file and all that is due tml.. oh god~ Can't believe that it's now after exams n we still have to study... guess that's y we r called sec 4. The older we are, the more sufferings we shall have... BGR, Friends, Families... i watched so many friends cried over all this matters that i actually feels numb to it now.. Perhaps when i was in secondary one n two, having boyfriends seems cool or wat sort ever as having bf den, in my mentality, prevent me frm being an "extra" in my group. However, now being single does not make me an extra, instead someone with lots of freedom in doing things the way i like... (no more reporting to my bf on my whereabouts) We had sex education todae!! But it had nth to do with sex though.. haha... I sooo wanna watch the abortion video when i heard Nina talk about it.. But too bad, apparantly the school jut feels that it's not suitable or some sort like that.. Damn them man! we're 16, not an adult, but certainly not a kid. It'll be a good thing if we can see the video, I think most of us will not opt for abortion when we are pregnant if we've seen the video..
I'm so dying to watch a chinese movie (too bad i m jus so cine) but! it was not shown in causeway theatre... We had to watch Troy instead.. I thought i wld hate this kind of roman movie but this movie is really worthed my $6.50 man.. i won't mind not eating for a week for this movie.. So damn nice! But too bad, it's so sad that i cried for some parts of the movie.(Brad Pitt n Hectar? is it spelled this way? N the king of Troy died..) that's reli sad.. Whether it's real or not, but i felt that ppl in the past are more passionate about things. But for us, does true love even exist? A man might say that he love u during marriage, n maybe he does love u den.. But 10 years down the road, how can he be sure bout his feelings anymore? There's no such word as forever though we had been hanging it on our mouths to show our partner how much we loved them.. But somehow, forever is just a lie.
Yohoo! i had just posted up the photo... finally figure out how to use it! Credits goes to Nina Liana Bte Roslan! Dun kill me for saying your full name though.. haha.. Just hope that the posting works, i kip my fingers crossed. Before posting the photos and such, just having the background and messages makes me feel like this isn't my blog cos it's simply not that original. However, posting the pictures makes me feels like this blog really belongs to me. Like, a home with all the photo frames lying around can really give you a homely feeling. I just visited a website to chat with foriegners aboard! The whole website was like really very horny and everything was just sex sex sex but it's so damn funny to play along just for the sake for laughs and fun, not that i was horny though. Well, yesterday i didn't update cos i m afraid that i will be scolding vulgarites all over my blog which i dun want to as i was too pissed off with my friend. Anyway, everything is over now(i hope) so my anger just simmered. 1.51a.m and i'm not yet sleeping. Gotta get black eye rings tml!! The night is still young, but not for small kids like me under 18. Guess that i can only sigh then... 2 more years to go... yawn~ i really gonna sleep now! Good nite! =D
Kaili Wang a.k.a Bimbo
Officially 18
Virgo
Crazy girl
Fun-loving
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