Just woke up.
And the time now is 8.20a.m.
So bloody early.
There's still traces of vomit in my breath I think and it sucks.
It's my friend's birthday party yesterday at aloha chalet.
And we simply go crazy, or perhaps it's just me.
I'm constantly smiling and laughing throughout the night but perhaps it was all an act.
My friend's boyfriend brought his friends too.
So it was like all adults cept for my friends and I.
Adults? So what's the different thing between an adult party and a kids one?
Just alot more liquor.
I forgot how much I drunk, maybe not much.
I don't know what I'm trying to do.
Acting like someone in some tv serial, drowning my sorrows?
All I know was, my hands never stop pouring, and my mouth never stop drinking.
When I was about to go home, I'm pretty drunk.
The ride in taxi was horrible.
Every bumps on the road just make me feel like vomitting.
Once I got out of the taxi, I puked.
I tried to act like I'm not drunk.
But I was too tired to put on a front.
My dad make me vomit in the bathroom.
It was bad, real bad.
This is not the first time I reach home drunk.
But this is the worst.
Now when I awoke,
I realised nothing changed.
I'm still that loser, or even worse now.
I just heard daddy's voice.
Time for a lecture.
Time to be awake now.
Face the world with my ugly self,
face the pain,
face the sorrows.
Everything just sucks today.
Me? Yeah my behaviour sucks too.
I don't know why I behave in such a igitated way.
Still have the feelings? Nah I'm positive I don't.
I thought everything will end with a break up,
But in fact everything seemed to start after it.
But no, I don't regret my decision.
Even if I'm condemned, no one can stop me from doing the right thing.
It hurts, but I choose to put on a smile.
I think I'm just a total failure in life.
Sometimes I wonder what if I never exist,
perhaps this world would have been a better place.
Depression over nothing, definately not over guys.
I don't even know what I'm writing.
Maybe I should just stop.
Maybe I should just return to who I was.
That quiet girl that sits by herself.
The one that no one notices but herself.
Kaili Wang a.k.a Bimbo
Officially 18
Virgo
Crazy girl
Fun-loving
Graduated from
Innova Junior College
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