The dark side of me

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

你不开心的眼
仿佛将我推到悬崖边缘
距离就算再靠近眼前
我们一样没交点
没有你的世界
就像寒冬没有春天依偎
少了你陪在身边
我的四季只剩下冬天

悲伤喜悦回忆不断重演
静下来的世界
有我的思念
也有你的空虚无边

你有没有听见
寂寞的声音悄悄在蔓延
它住进我们之间
消耗着我和你的永远

你有没有听见
思念的呼唤传遍每条街
就算你走的再远
累了回头
我就在你的身边

Just a girl|11:25 PM|

I'm behaving like a bimbo now, with my facial mask on, sitting in front of my desktop. Haha.

I feel so sleepy again, but this time I have an excuse of it. Cos i haven't sleep at all in more than 30 hours already? LOL. I'm having a headache now cos' of the lack of sleep.

I went out to mug last night and reached home only at 7 this morning.. And guess wat? I met Cindy at 11 plus and went to town after that, without even any sleep.

Sigh. I think I am mad. Well, Cindy's worse. She made the both of us wore Harry Potter shirts from bossini kids to town today. Haha. We looked so comical on the train! And I even tied my hair in a bun to one side, attempting to imitate the female lead in Princess Hour. HAHA. Damn stupid la!

Anyway, it's a day of mugging through tiredness and madness at coffee bean at Paragon.
Oh, and we took a break and went to shop for prom dress for Lindsay at Far East after mugging.
So poor Lindsay had to try this and that cos we made her. Haha. She looked cute in those dresses though.

After that, we went to eat Japanese cuisine!! Haha. And Ian got to eat all the food that we couldn't finish. Oops!

Tiring but fun day.

Kaili

Just a girl|9:57 PM|

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Monday, October 23, 2006

No mood to mug today.

No mood to sleep today.

No mood to do anything.

Not on this day.

Just a girl|2:45 AM|

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Sunday, October 22, 2006

I watched the walls around me crumble
But it's not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts cause it will end
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find
A reason for goodbye

I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I'm dreamin' bout you
Honestly tell me that it's over
Cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time
You're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find
A reason for goodbye

I can’t live without you
Can’t breathe without you
I’m dreamin' bout you
Honestly tell me that it’s over
Cause if the world is spinning and I’m still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I’ll be the first to go
Yeah I’ll be the first to go
Don’t want to be the last to know
Over over over
My tears are turning into time
I’ve wasted trying to find
A reason for goodbye

I can’t live without you
Can’t breathe without you
I’m dreamin' bout you
Honestly tell me that it’s over
Cause if the world is spinning and I’m still living
It won't be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
Tell me that it's over
Over

Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me
Don't tell me that it's over
Don't tell me that it's over

Just a girl|5:39 PM|

I just came back from Econs tuition. *yawns* I'm so frigging tired!
I went to a friend's house to mug overnight(though we ended up talking, ha) and I reached home only at 8.15 this morning.
After sleeping for less than 4 hours, I had to get ready for tuition. =(
Well, I am still glad that I went to my friend's house anyway.
We talked about things that I've been keeping to myself for quite a while.
Though we probably can't go back to before since everything changed so much.
Somehow, I just feel more relieved now I guess.
At least, there are now less things for me to regret about after A's.

I feel so drained now, but I just couldn't sleep.
I dunno how long can I keep up with this facade when tears are threathening to fall anytime.
How long can I keep up with the laughter and smile when it's all so fake..
Sometimes I really want to remove the mask, but I know I'd probably break down without my protective cover.

I need to study.
And I am going out to study.
No, I don't need sleep.
I need to mug to distract myself from thinking.

Sometimes, goodbye is just a painful way to say "I love you".

Just a girl|4:31 PM|

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