School reopened for almost going to a month now. Everything had been so hectic. So much things happened that i don't know what to blog about anymore. Sigh. As a start, my friend broke up with her boyfriend. And things are not going smoothly. This actually had an impact on me, and I start to think about what if the same situation happen to me, what will I do? Yes I had boyfriend, but I've never been in love. If you get what I mean. Literally in love. I know one day, sooner or later heartbreaks will come. But I dread that day. Maybe that'a why I couldn't commit. I tend to break up with most of my exs within months before the relationship gets any deeper. So is it that I had no feelings for them or cos I was afraid? I don't know anymore.
Now I got a crush on this guy... But I'm afraid to confess or even show it. So i did alot of dumb stuff to cover it up. However, it only seemed to make it worse. I'm so confused. I don't know what to do anymore.
Yesterday, during Econs lecture, when I was in the toliet with one of my friend, she suddenly felt pain in her abdomen and was so in pain that she can't even move. It freak me out man. I had to run to my teacher for help and then called for an ambulance to send her to the hospital. Hope she's better now! I prayed for her yesterday. I supposed to be trained in first aid yet I felt so lost yesterday. I felt so useless.
When I reached home, an even more upsetting news came along. Grandpa is diagnosed with lungs cancer. And it's no ordinary lungs cancer. I checked for information online, printing articles and articles only to get more disppointed. There's almost no cure for it. And the only medication only came out in the market one month ago. The situation's pretty hopeless. My uncle died from cancer and now my Grandpa got it. My thoughts kept drifting back to my primary school days when my uncle got diagnosed with cancer. The memory is still vivid. I was there to witness his death and i remembered the heartache the whole family felt. I hate to see death, illness and I hate attending funeral. Can anyone tell me that everything will be alright? I doubt it.
Pessimistic. All I can do now is to pray.
Tired girl,
Kaili
Kaili Wang a.k.a Bimbo
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