The dark side of me

Saturday, July 17, 2004

Sigh.. Today the moment I read my blog and my chatterbox, I start to laugh. I mean, there's someone using the nick "Nina" yet it wasn't one of my pals. Oh gosh, how did I know? Easy. Firstly, Nina don't type in this kind of spelling and Nina simply don't write like this. So, my advice to miss/mr. imposter, perhaps you should probably read more of Nina blog entry to find out more bout' the way she write, haha. Damn, I'm not pissed off at all(funny?), instead I laugh and actually start to pity the imposter. I mean, what's so fun about posing as somebody? If the person's aim is to irritate me or Nina, or even break off our friendship, I would have to say that this didn't really affect us. And I really pity you imposter, why do you have to pose as someone and not your real identity? Are you that ashamed of yourself? So maybe you should start showing that you have some guts and comment only using ur own identity, get a life man. Stop living in other ppl's shadows, be proud for yourself for once. If not, your real name and identity just don't serve any purpose, isn't it? lol... take care imposter, think for yourself if you wanna continue this childish game. Btw Nina, my pal, there's no nid to worried about that I'm gonna misunderstood you. I know you, I trust you.
Laughter,
Kaili

Just a girl|10:45 PM|

Haha.. i used such a wierd title today, cos' that's what the characters in mean girls loved to do. God, I'm really obsessed with the movie aren't I? I changed my song, again! For more than don't know how many times, lol. Decided to use this song since I'm in a bitchy mood now, haha. Yesterday was like the usual, nothing too exciting cept' for the fact that I was told that one of my school girls got slapped by one of my friends. Man, I was laughing when I heard about it. (Evil?) I mean, I couldn't be blame well since that girl really ought to be taught a lesson for spreading rumors about people and talking behind ppl's back. Well, just hope that I ain't the next target! Sigh~ such a beautiful Saturday and I'm having lessons in about 8 hours time, I can't even get enough beauty sleep, but can't blame the teachers too for this is our graduating year. I haven't even start my studying yet, just hope that I will scrap pass and proceed on to Junior College next year. Just woke up and have my dinner+supper a few hours ago, I totally cannot go to sleep again. Tommorow I'm gonna end up looking like a panda. I went to Malaysia yesterday to make my new specs and contacts and I actaually chose a black frame just for the sake of fun. Not wearing specs to school for years, wearing it yesterday feels wierd. Some friend commented that the specs is nice but I looked like a nerd, haha. But it's okay, it will be nice to change the image once in the while. At least I looked more studious now, just that I gonna scare more guys away from me, sob... Later on today, maybe I will pose up some photos of me wearing the new specs and some photos of me wearing the contacts? Be sure to give me some opinons! =) Good "Night" everybody! *Credits for songs go to Cody's Music Code*

*Kisses* Love ya,
Kaili....

Just a girl|1:22 AM|

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Wednesday, July 14, 2004

I just watched the movie "Mean Girls" today. It's funny. Though it's such a chick flim, but it's actually kinda meaningful in a way as it reflected alot of what girls our age do. It actually caused me to think on lots of self reflection, whether we did any of those mean things that "the plastics" did in the movie. I was actually so reminded of my plight two years ago when I was still an ugly duckling, not that now is any better though, lol. But neway, like all teenagers, we hang out in groups. I was friends with 3 classmates of mine who are really pretty and quite popular. But I actually felt inferior, I'm the ugly girl, the unpopular girl. Somehow, my character didn't make up for my bad looks then, I was a total bitch. And I end up being one of the targeted girl to be bullied by my friends, they seemed to find amusement in doing that to me. Somehow, I drifted away from some of em, and I'm definitely not that much of a bitch now, i guess. Learning to stand up for yourself is actually a good thing, no longer being a clown whom amuses others..

Girl,
kaili

Just a girl|10:51 PM|

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Monday, July 12, 2004

Sigh~ i better update once in a while... my blog is so like.. don't know what now.. i think i gonna change the layout soon, again! haha... Today is such a tiring & hectic day. I forgot to bring my History homework to school and ended up redoing parts of it. That's kinda the worst part. I can't believe it.. Today i was staring at my some sort of ex crush during lunchtime frm the corner of my eyes.. or rather, peeking.. *laugh sheepishly* acting like I don't cared. But i was so into looking at him throughout my whole meal that when he turned and stare at his girlfriend, I turned my head as well.. Gosh! God.. save me from the embaressment. Talking about guys again, yesterday i kinda went through the lifestyle of the blind. Going to a nearby cafe for dinner, I decided not to wear my spectacles nor my contacts..Just feel my way round, & went there with my family. My sister was all the while going ga-ga over a guy in the cafe while I can't really see anything with my poor eyesight. Then, a woman walked in, and I actually tell my sis, "hey look, you gt some competition." She was turning to look at the so-called competition when she laughed out loud. Putting on my glasses frm my bag, my mouth formed into an O and ended up laughinh hsterically... it was actually a woman in her 40s, white haired. Now.. what's up with telling and talking about guys all of a sudden? eww.. I must be guys-sick! (Refused to beieve!) LoL... I'm so sleepy now.. gonna do my homework for school tml... cya!

Punches,
kailiiiiii

Just a girl|10:34 PM|

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